You know, I thought long and hard about "friends" (the general subject - I don't intend to imply anything about friend classification by using quotes) today. I got news that one is leaving with her fiance for England, and that yet another is off to pursue a higher degree, and I have recently been thinking about the rifts that have materialized between others.

I think I am trying to scrounge around, towards this end of college, for some sort of continuity for when I leave this place and aside from Boy, I am sincerely trying to line up all of my other ducks at least in the category of "friends"

I am beginning by mentally ordering my friends according to the respect I afford them; I think what's becoming painfully apparent is that a lot of so called "respect" is being chipped at by recent (and maybe not so recent) events and behaviors. Sure, I have friends whom I can't and don't respect, but they aren't really my friends - they'll at best be kept at arm's length. This re-ordering, though, is making me see things about friends whom I keep at closer than arm's length, and though I've thought about it over and over for a little while, it's hard to make sense of what it all spells for the future.

I have more thoughts, but i'm afraid I've already said too much.